Lately

June 22, 2009 in Prayer/Faith with 4 Comments

I haven’t written a lot lately.

I read Ragamuffin Gospel and it jacked me up.  God has entered my life full time, and it’s really jacking me up.

I am struggling through a lot of things, that I am trying really hard to deal with.  I’ve become my mother in a lot of ways, and it bothers me.

I try so hard to not let my anger show, or worse, say things I will regret, but I do.

I’m praying God will move me through these times.  I’m praying God will soften my heart, and help me be the man I want to be.

Thank you to who ever still stops by.  I will start writing again soon.  Once I work all this stuff out, there will be some real, authentic, and probably uncomfortable writing going on here.

Thanks for your prayers.

  • http://www.whatsthislifefor.org Toby

    Hey we miss ya out here in the blogdom!!

    Praying you’ll become who HE wants you to be!

  • http://bryan-hills.blogspot.com Bryan

    Hey Bro, just wanted to let you know, you are not alone. I struggle with some of these same things. Praying for us, to be the men he want us to be! :-)

  • http://lovewillbringustogether.wordpress.com lovewillbringustogether

    Hi There, saw your comment over at Tam’s and came over to see what’s what.

    Anger is a topic i am not unfamiliar with (i find it is closely related to frustration with something in my life).
    Along the lines of Happy week however if we focus on ‘trying’ to prevent our anger what we are actually focussing on is our anger – sort of like if we try applying some medication to a wound to reduce the pain – all we end up doing is feeling the pain more because we are focussing on it.

    Some medication is of course needed on some open woulds and pain is a necessary feeling of our bodies – it serves a useful function – but not when it overrides our ability to not feel pain and perform effectively.

    So two ways to ‘attack’ Anger:
    1. focus on those aspects of our life that leads us away from our anger and frustration.

    2. focus more on understanding the real cause of it within us – it is not always ‘someone/something ‘else’ – it is most likely a frustration we feel in our lives due to some circumstances we feel compelled to live ‘in’.

    Work out ways to no longer be ‘trapped’ in them or ways to surrender our frustration and personal will to our Higher will – His Will. Like accepting our suffering because He requires it of us until we learn what is being taught to our spirit.

    There are far more ‘important’ things to work out than those of this earthly life – even though things down here are loosely based upon the things that are ‘above’.

    any of that make sense? :-)

    <B

  • http://www.crucialencounter.com Andy McMahon

    Thank you so much for this. I really appreciate it! And yes.. it makes PERFECT sense!