Bonus Years
- January 22nd, 2009
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I was telling Andrea yesterday that when I was younger, I honestly did not plan on living past 20. Every action I took and every decision I made was on the thought that I was going to be dead by 20. I wasn’t planning on offing myself when the day came, I just assumed that my lifestyle didn’t really have room for more than two decades. I knew that how I was living was going to kill me, and I was ok with that.
I told her that every year past 20, I considered ‘bonus years’. Years that I had never planned on living. Today is my 6th bonus year. This year is a little different for me, because now, I am not only living, I have a life! I have a wife that loves me, I have a family that cares, and I have friends that seem to give a crap.
Days like today, I do one of two things. I look back on my life, and think about how I haven’t really done that much with my life. (Ultimately I realize I am only XX years old, and that my life has been SO full by now that most of the stories from my life I tell, people don’t believe.) Or, I sit down and really praise God. I mean, REALLY praise him. I was not supposed to live past 20. It wasn’t in my game book. I have died. My heart has stopped. More than once. I have been to the slums, lived there, been at rock bottom.
Jesus Christ came down, picked me up and pulled me out. Jesus Christ was my intervention. Because of Him, I am living my 6th bonus year. Because of Him I sit here this morning, not just worried about being 26 but I actually think about when I turn 30 and 40 and 50. I think about my children, and my children’s children. I think about spending the rest of my life with a beautiful woman. I think about living, I think about serving, I think about HIM.
Today, on my 26th. I am not going to get down on myself because I haven’t done this, or I haven’t done that. Today, on my 26th, I am going to move forward to live a life of serving Jesus Christ with my whole being. Today I am going to celebrate the life that He has given me, (and it is a BEAUTIFUL life.) Today, I am going to look forward to serve. Today, I am going to appreciate every heartbeat, every breath, and every thing, good or bad that happens. This life is in ‘bonus years’. I am not going to sit around and waste any more of them.
Thank you Jesus for saving me. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you! I love you God!
Amen!
