Psalm 19:14

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.

That is something that that I haven’t focused on much lately.  It’s no secret that I have a temper.  I think we all do to an extent.  I have been fairly good at just dealing with it, and not letting my temper get the best of me.  As of late, that’s not the case.

I am not good with stress.  There was a time that I was.  Not anymore though.  Now, stressful situations, or situations I perceive as stressful, really back me into a corner.  I don’t know how to react, and in turn, I end up taking it out on the person closest to me.  It’s sickening to step back and look at.

I don’t feel like I have done too much to help get ready for this wedding.  I don’t feel like I know enough about what is going on.  I feel like I am just lazy when it comes to the stuff that is going on.  For those of you who read this blog and have never planned a wedding, let me tell you.  It’s not easy.  That is probably the root of my temper lately.  Just not knowing what is going on.  I’m not a person who deals well with not knowing, and I deal even worse with feeling completely invald in a situation.  I feel like I’m standing over a man who is choking, and I don’t know the heimlich maneuver.  You know, the panicky feeling.  Yeah.  That describes the feeling.

I let it slip my mind that even in stressful situations, my words and my heart have to be “acceptable in Thy site.”  People don’t always get the benefit to take a situation and pray about it before they react.  It’s times like this that I need to be grounded in the Word, the Faith, and strong in my walk with Christ.  So my reaction can be acceptable in His sight.

That’s my prayer. That I learn this metaphorical heimlich manuever.