a confession and change of style.

October 13, 2008 in addiction with 3 Comments

I tend to get obsessed easily. When I was 8, I was obsessed with baseball and baseball cards. I could tell you how many hits any individual player had, I could tell you who was on pace to beat records, I could tell you who was the best rookie, I could tell you who I thought was going to win the World Series. (To this day, I am pretty close even though I don’t follow baseball that much anymore.)

I obsess over whatever it is I’m obsessed about. Does that make sense? Lately, it’s been my blog. (And Andrea’s) I love the blogs. I love reading what Andrea has to write, and I love the community that we are all able to form on-line. Also. I am obsessed with numbers. Woopra, Google Analytics, and any other program that will tell me my numbers, I obsess over. It’s not even the numbers necessarily. It’s interesting to see how many hits I get from Antarctica or whatever. I love that crap. I guess it makes me feel kind of important. I dunno. I try to post daily. I think about stuff to write. I think about it a lot! I really do.

I am going to change that. I think, (Aside from Compassion Tuesday) I am going to blog when I feel like it. I want to spend more time in the Word. I want to spend more time with my Fiance without a computer in my lap. (And hers) I’m about to get married. I love writing about it. I love writing. More than ever, when I pray, I feel God whispering, “Write. Write. Write.” So that’s what I do. But I also hear God screaming, “Family, Fiance, Read, Study, LOVE.” I am going to write. Whenever I want. What I won’t do, is obsess over posting a blog every day, or push myself to write something.  I won’t check Google Analytics. I won’t check Woopra. They are great tools, but that stuff doesn’t necessarily matter.

What matters to me most is God and my family. The minute I feel like my family, and God aren’t the center of my life, is the minute I will put my laptop down, leave work, and spend time with them. So, in lieu of doing that. I am changing up my style, my obsession, and being normal. To me, It feels like I’m “Cutting back”. In reality, it’s probably more of a mental change than anything. I guess time will tell.

Anyway, there you have it. My confession. My efforts, and my change of style. Have you ever struggled with this? Do people tell you you spend too much time in the “Social Network World”?

I may have heard that a time or two. :)

  • http://www.kriskelley.com Kris

    You know – there was a time when I pretty much “lived” on the internet. Actually, there were a couple times. It is definitely hard to get away from sometimes. I know that I have a major addiction to the internet, but I step away from it from time to time. For example – my obsession with online games is HIGH. In order to keep my job and friendships, I avoid them all together. I want to install Diablo and Warcraft and Unreal Tournament and play all night long, but I know it is bad for me. I don’t eat, I hold my pee until my bladder hurts, I call in sick to work, and I get very little sleep.

    Real life friends are so much better. :)

  • http://www.shalomexistence.com Andrea

    God, are you listening? It’s me Andrea. :) I love you!!! Lol. I don’t even have words. Can you imagine? Me, okay, I could come up with some words but I’m not. This post made me giggly (is that a word?!) happy.

    Andrea´s last blog post..Mother Teresa says (Mondays)….

  • http://www.whatsthislifefor.org Toby

    I have read this post, it seems, on a hundred different blogs. I understand that everyone needs a break and at busy times in our lives (weddings and such), maybe we need to slow down. Aside from that, I just don’t get it. I would be willing to bet I spend just as much time on my blog, if not more, then the next guy. I have a wife and two kids and yes, sometimes I am blogging from the phone and doing homework with the 6 year old. BUT….I have never once had the thought that I was reaching TOO many people and needed to stop or slow down. Sure, on my blog you’ll find the occasional post about our family, but for the most part, the entire purpose of it is to expand the Kingdom of God. I’ll never be convinced that I can do that TOO much. When I started my ministry, and that includes my blog, my family had to understand they were second and He would always be first. Now then, if you’re focused on YOU and how many come to read YOUR blog, then maybe a shift in focus is in order, but don’t slow down; don’t stop.
    Ya know what I’m sayin bro? I’m not being a critic, but get married, do your thing, and then get back to work. I only say this because you are one of the few, true Christian bloggers. I say this because I know you’re reaching people. I know your story aligns with so many people struggling to find a better place. I know God will lead some of those people to your site where they will see that there is a way out.
    Shift…reevaluate….focus….Whatever, but don’t stop doing what you’re doing.

    Toby´s last blog post..If It’s Good Enough For Him It’s Good Enough For Me