When I think of the word surrender, I automatically picture a white flag. Normally being waved by a coward, in a foxhole or hiding behind something, because everything around him is collapsing and most everyone he knows has left or been taken from him. Only when I picture this, do I realize the power of the Word.
At first I thought surrendering to God is something I only have to do once, you know, just a one time thing. Now I know I was wrong. Initially, the surrender is easy, accepting Jesus as your savior, inviting him into your life, and confessing you are helpless with out Him. So the story goes.

When I try to explore deeper into my faith, it seems I have to surrender every time I turn around. I find an endless list of imperfections and flaws in myself, that I can’t look past without surrendering more to Jesus. I suppose it is because I am stubborn and prideful, and I can only let go a little at a time. My human imperfections blind me of just that, my imperfections.

Admitting defeat, (each time I have to) glorifies the Lord, renewing, and strengthening the true awesomeness of his love, power and forgiveness. So, although I might be weak, I may be a coward, daily I will wave my white flag. My flag not only shows my weakness, but also glorifies the Lord.

I am no longer afraid to be powerless, and to wave my flag. I invite you, young or old, new Christian or a “life long veteran”, black or white, male or female, to wave your white flag with me. What a beautiful way to glorify our Father!

Probably not… But, if you look up top, I have made pages for Compassion, and for the LifeShare Challenge.

These are things that I think are pretty stinkin awesome, and I think everyone should be involved.  The schedule for LifeShare is on the page.  And, while you’re clicking around, check out the Compassion page.

Let me know what y’all think, and come by tomorrow for my Reposts from my “old blog”  Talk to ya’ll soon!

Too often I wake up with expectations for the day.  Typically, I expect the day to not go well.  (Mon-Fri at least) I have been praying about that lately.  I feel like, if I wake up thinking about how awful my day is going to be, that sets me up to have an awful day.  It’s hard for me to wake up and thank God.  I mean.  Normally by the time I’m brushing my teeth, I am at least trying to thank God. (My teeth are a constant reminder how good God is, because of my meth addiction, and the fact I still have them is a miracle)

I wonder what it takes to open eyes, and just praise.  It doesn’t seem to difficult.  I mean, I can choose what song I wake up to from my iPod.  Why not tune it to a worship song instead of something else?  I used to do that… for like.. three days.

I am starting to believe a good day is just as possible as a bad day, and we determine that. (aside from catastrophes) Maybe tomorrow Monday I’ll wake up to some Chris Tomlin, unless someone has a great song they like to wake up to.  maybe that day will go better.  Maybe I have been creating my own bad days?  I think so.  For the most part anyway.

Enough of this “Today is gonna suck, I have too much to do, I work too much” yadda yadda pity me crap.  Instead, I want it to be, “Holy cow.  I woke up again.  Thank God.  The fact that I have more than one job in this economy is a blessing, and I am going to go and be grateful for this day.  Thank you God for giving me another chance today to worship you!”

Maybe it won’t sound exactly like that, but you know.  I can try.  Heck, who knows.  I might even have better days because of it.

God.  Help me remember You.  I can be so self absorbed.  I can be so pitiful.  Please help me to remember each day does not have to come.  Help me make the most out of what I have, and give praise to you in ALL that I do.  Not just somethings.  God, I love You.  You are amazing.  Thank you for loving me.

-Amen

I have learned A LOT since being engaged.  A lot of things to do, and more things NOT TO DO.  It’s difficult.  But, I think I am doing a great job, and Andrea is behaving wonderfully!  Especially for a stressed out bride-to-be.

Rule #5.

It looks really good if at any given moment you know how many days until your wedding.  It helps if you choose a day like.. say… November 1st, but nonetheless, people get very impressed.  That wasn’t my intention, I know because I am a countdown type of person, and I do countdowns to things I am pumped about.  I am merely saying.  It looks good to people.

To clear some things up… here is a counter.  No math needed in 2008.

X that.  Apparently Counters don’t work in WordPress… or I’m a fool. lol

Ok.  I like to think I am pretty good at doing simple things.  You know.  Cleaning up after myself. (Sometimes) and keeping my dirty laundry in an organized mess on the floor.  Even putting the seat down.  But, according to my wonderful fiance, I sometimes fail to put the toilet seat down…. Like last night.

For those of you who don’t know, Due to some circumstances and timing, I crash at Andrea’s mother’s house.  Andrea is so sweet, she sleeps on the couch, and allows me to sleep in a bed.  So, I guess last night before I went to bed I forgot to put the toilet seat down.  (Whoops)

At 4:00 am, Andrea found herself falling into (or almost falling into) a toilet.  (Whoops again)

So.  Rules of Engagement #4.

Remember to put the seat down if you want your wedding to still happen.  Apparently women don’t like falling into the toilet. (who knew?)