Medium

September 8, 2008 in Uncategorized with 2 Comments

So, I wonder.  Is there a medium.  I was talking to my fiance tonight, on the way home from Taco Bell, and we were talking about being tired.  She told me I should go to bed when we got home, and I talked about how when I get too much sleep I’m tired.  She said if I don’t get enough sleep I’m tired, so what’s the difference?

I don’t know.  There seems to be a 30 minute window I can’t find anywhere, where I could wake up completely refreshed.  I know it exists, I have seen people be energized during the day.  It doesn’t make any sense that I can’t get sleep though.  When I lay down to sleep, I start thinking.  I think about Vows  I want to add or edit to the vows I’m writing.  I think about a story I want to share, or something troublesome from my past.  I even think about how awesome things are.  I pray, I lose focus while I’m praying and think about what I’ve forgotten to do at work or around the home.  It’s silly.

I wonder if life is supposed to be Coffee and sleeping pills?  Is that a circle that people make routine?  At least here in America?  I mean in one sitting of a commercial break in prime time, I see commercials for Columbia Coffee, and Lunesta.  Is that what life is supposed to be?  Or is that what the so called “American Dream” has brought us all to?

There’s something to think about tonight when you’re trying to get to sleep.

  • http://www.whatsthislifefor.org Toby

    Well Andy, I fall asleep when my head hits the pillow and I’m pretty amped when I get up. What do I have that you don’t? 2 things, but you will soon get them both. #1. I’m old
    #2. I’m married
    Sleep and energy are supposed to be after thoughts for you right now cuz your brain is on overload. Give it a few years…no wedding to plan, no vows to say, you’re comfortable in God’s plan…You’ll finally take a deep breath and say..”man, that was fun!”
    So many people out there get to where you are and give up because they can’t handle it. I’m confident you see the light at the end. For now, if it’s Lunesta and Capafrappacinolattemochajova or whatever ya’all call that crap, then so be it. Enjoy!!

  • http://www.shalomexistence.com Andrea

    More and more, I realize I don’t have to live up to others expectations of me, just God’s. And I think there is something to be said for living a simple life, as much as we can, glorifying God in the process. We are so close to being able to do that together. And I think we will be able to take a breath. Besides, with this new workout routine, we will be getting energy and sleep the natural way! ;)